Where should I be?

I visited a church call Joy & Praise Fellowship a few weeks ago and found that this is the place I need to be.  I have visited other churches since I've been in FL but never felt at home at any of them.

My brother wanted me to come to his church and visit, which I did.  He picked me up and off we went to his church.  I wasn't moved or felt love the of God or anyone else there, they really didn't seem to care.  I visited my sisters church and almost fell asleep, also didn't feel the love of God or the love of others.

My thought on that is that I'm not to be at either of these fellowships.  It's not that they don't love and that God is not present in these churches, it's the fact that I'm not to be there.  I've also visited a couple other churches and the same thing: didn't feel at home or any thing else.  Like I said, it's not that God isn't there and accepting their praise and worship, it's I just don't belong there.

Joy and Praise Fellowship is where I belong.  I knew that from the first day I visited them.  I just love it there and am always looking forward to the next meeting.  I am so at home there, I cannot describe.  However I must admit I was a bit confused on the prayer meeting, it was like none I've ever attended before.

The only other church that I am familiar with as far as prayer meetings are concerned is Wards Creek in St. Augustine, FL.  That is very much over 20 yrs. ago.  When we went to prayer meeting and Bible study it was organized per sey.  The preacher would ask someone to begin and after that person was done then someone else would pray out-loud, etc.  After that we would have a Bible study.

The church I'm now attending we all pray on our own and then we all hold hands and pray together.  This is a totally new concept to me.  At first I was confused about the whole thing because this was not something I was used to.  The first time I went to prayer meeting, this was something I did not expect.  Doesn't matter now though for I have learned that this is something that's needed, for the simple reason most people don't like to pray out loud.  

I thank God that he has shown me this.  We can mumble under our breath and not worry that we are saying the right words for others to hear.  Oh and how we do this.  I remember many times I wanted to pray out loud when I lived in St. Augustine but didn't because I felt or thought that I couldn't pray as eloquent as the other who did.  It was such a struggle for me.

I am so happy, xtatic to know now that it doesn't matter.  God is good and God is gracious and oh so forgiving.  I love Him and thank Him daily for all the wonderful works that He has done, not only in my life, also in the lives of my family and friends.

I am so grateful that God brought me to Joy & Praise Fellowship, words cannot explain.   All I have to say right now is Thank you Lord for your blessings on me!

Questions everyone Ask of God!

Oh God,

Are you listening, do you hear me?   Are you there??????

Sometimes God, Father, Redeemer  I really don't know if you are listening or not.  Sometimes I feel all alone and deserted.  I really wonder sometimes if you really will help or intervene. Or whatever.

As far as I know I'm trying, however I may not be doing enough of trying to get to know you.  I need help, assistance with this.

My prayer is this oh Lord, God Almighty help (assist) me in this area.  I need to get back to where I was when I first accepted you as my Lord and Savior.  I need that joy, happiness, knowing that you would take care of it all and protect and guide me.    Somehow Lord God I lost that and I want it back.

It has been of 35 yrs (give or take a yr. or so). since I've accepted you and I have a dull memory of it, but I do remember (even though it vague)  the peace, joy and comfort, boldness etc.  How do I get that youthful stuff back.  How do I get back to where I was so confident in your word and truly truly trusted you without a doubt?   I want that so Earnesty. How oh God do I get that back???????

I'm sure that there are many more questions out there, however these are some of the ones I have and if I think about it long enough I'm sure I have many more.

What about you?  What questions do you have for God?   Comments are always welcomed.

 

Ok God what now?

Hello God,

How are you today???  I'm sure you are doing well for you are God.

Just wanted to let you know I'm not doing to well.  I'm having a hard time dealing with my best friend (or so I thought) not contacting me, sending me condolencance or what ever.     Why oh why has she deserted me?  That I do not know.

Well besides that God I know you are there, however and I really don't like being a problem child: BUT  I don't know how to deal with life anymore!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't know what happened to me, I don't what to do anymore.   So Lord Jesus, God Almighty what should I do now?????????????/

You sent  me here to FL to take care of Mom, but now she's gone.    I had a purpose, but now it seems I don't.   What am I suppose to do know?????????

I do not know.  Ok God!!!  I'm feeling lost and confused.   I need you to give me a small  miricle.   I  need fixed God,  I really need fixed, will you do that???  Please!!!

I'm not really sure if I have ever prayed right or not and I'm not really sure how to pray, all I know is that I try to talk to you and pray and I'm not really sure what prayer is.

Ok I know I'm just rampling here God, Jesus, Father, but I really need assistance here, because I just don't know right now how to get a grib on life anymore.   I don't know what happened to the love, passion, get go, adventure seeking, etc. in my life.

So right now, God, I'm asking that  you give me the passion and love of life back.   Also please forgive me for being such a goof off, and I really, really need a job Lord and I would really appreciated it if you would let me find one that I would enjoy.

Thank you so much Lord God Almighty for listening (or should I say for reading) to my concerns,  I'm really looking forward to hearing back from you and receiving your guidence.

Thank you for listening.

Yours truely,
Julia