Questioning our faith.

Don't we all doubt our faith occasionally???  Wonder what it's all about and all that.  Question ourselves and wonder?? about everything.  God says to check ourselves.   So I often wonder.......about everything, God, angels, Lucifer, Jesus, Satin, spirits, etc.  I have a curious mind and want to know things.  And, yes I doubt my faith sometimes and I wonder......am I helping or hurting the people I have meant in my life.  (Hopefully helping)  You just never know the impact you have on someone with a simple smile or hello.

Many times in my life I have questions, and have asked God for the answers and sometimes I'm just not sure if it was God answering them or if it was otherwise.

Just simple things in life like getting a job, did God actually provide that job for me or was it because I search diligently for it.

I have asked God for healing for people in my life to no avail.  They have died and it grieves me so that they are no longer with us.  I often wonder why some are healed and others are not.  Why did he not heal my mom, why did he not heal my future daughter-in-laws aunt, why didn't he heal my dad, etc, etc.

These are things we cannot know.

Also, I wonder why God doesn't speak to us any more.   Does he even care, if so why doesn't he talk to us.   I'm not talking about that still small voice inside us, I'm talking about talking!

A conversation, whether it be audible or not, something to know for sure that God, Jesus is speaking.  I don't want a feeling, that is just not enough, I want to know for sure that I've actually heard from God.  The creator of the universe, the world and all that there is.  I want to know for sure that he actually gives a damn!!!!!!!!!.

Sometimes and a lot lately I don't think He does.