When God doesn't answer prayer.

We all go through pain and suffering at some point in life, some more than others.  We cry out to God for help, for a miracle, for Him to do something, anything to make it go away.  We struggle and get angry even furious with God and wonder why He is not doing anything.  We pout, cry, sob sit in silence and ponder and just stare at nothing in particular, feeling empty.   Why is this happening? I don't understand!


A man on the tv the other night was talking about his dying son and his son wondered why God didn't heal him.  The dad didn't know what to tell the boy.  Later that night while tucking his son into bed he gave this explanation:  son, we are solders of God and as solders we go out into battle, some come home wounded, some come home whole and some don't come home at all.  We all fight together and want to be good solders don't we.  The boy said I'm going to be the best solder and it's ok someday Jesus will take care of it.


One day when he went into work after being up most the night tending to his son he told his secretary to cancel all appointments and he wasn't taking any calls.  He paced his office and started yelling at God and letting God know how angry and upset he was that God wasn't doing anything.  He left the office and just started driving, pounding on the steering wheel going through all the emotions that we go through when we're upset about something.


Finally after the tears dried up he felt a calm and a presence with him and heard this from God; son know that I am with you and I hurt right along with you, I too had to watch my son die, it was so agonizing that I turned the sky dark and made the day night, I couldn't watch, I had to look away.  Just know this every-time you hurt I'm right there with you, when you cry, I cry with you, I feel your pain and know what you are going through.  Understand that I cannot always intervene for if I was always to do that you would not have free will and you must be able to see Satan for who he is and all the ugliness that he brings on this earth.  You see you have a choice weather to serve me or to reject me in times of sorrow and trouble, to rely on me or turn the other way.   Know that I am with you.


After hearing this man's story, listening to what he went through and the answer he got was the answer for me also.  It was so enlightening and comforting to me I wanted to share it so you too could understand why God doesn't always heal.  He hears us and is with us and will be till the end.  Next time you are going through a difficult time remember that God is right there with you carrying you through it.  I know it doesn't feel like it at the time, but He is.


Be still and know that I am God, said the Lord.

Where

I'm not sure where this post belongs, here or in heaven's grocery store.
However here goes.

Why do I question everything?  including God.  I wonder where He is and why he doesn't help me or give me guidance.  why does my life seem to be a nightmare, why does it seem to be a dream.   Why is it a hallucination, why can't I seem to get a grip on it any more.   I really, really don't know what happened to me.

I'm lost and confused and I don't know where to go or what to do.  I have lost  my ambition, my drive, my sense of adventure.   I want it back and I don't know how to find it.

I want God back in my life and although I believe I found him over 35 yrs. ago,  I wonder.  I wonder, I wonder and I still wonder, where is He, who is He and why can't I get back in touch with Him.

I'm searching, searching, looking, questioning, praying and still I can't seem to find God nor get his help!!!!!!   Where are you God, why do I feel like you don't care.   Somewhere in my brain I know you do!   Somewhere in my brain I know you love me.

It's my heart that I'm concerned about!!!!   I don't feel you in my heart and I want to! I don't know why I don't feel you in my heart.  Why aren't you  there???

Maybe I'm just confused.  I just wish I knew what to do.  God I feel lost and confused and I know you are not the god of confusion.  I know you give a lot of verses about that but they do not seem to be helping right now.

I'm just wondering right now where are you now!!!!!!!!!!  Why can't I hear you????
I want to hear you, I want to know what to do, I want to know how to start or do or whatever?.  I need to know,  I do not like this feeling of being lost and confused and being alone. (I know God I am not alone but that's how I feel)

I'm not good at speaking things out loud and I know I should according to your word.  I guess that is something I need to work on because I know there is power in the tongue or word spoken.

I just need your help God a small merical or something, guidance, direction.  Something.  I'm not asking for a lot God, I'm just asking for direction, that's all, please give me some direction.

The Power of the Tongue.

Be careful what you speak.

Words are powerful things, they can lift you up or bring you down.  They have the power to give life or destroy.  Be careful what you say whether for good or for bad a it will come back to you.

Matthew 12:36-37  But I say unto you that every idle word that men shall speak, they shall give account of it in the day of judgement.  For by the words thou shall be justified, and by the words thou shall be condemned.

Proverbs 18:21 Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and they that love it shall eat the fruit thereof.

James 3:5-8  Even so the tongue is a little member and boasts great things,  Behold, how great a matter a little fire kindles.  And the tongue is a fire, a world of iniquity; so is the tongue among our members that it defileth the whole body, and setteth on fire the course of nature, and it is set on fire of hell.  For every kind of beasts, and of birds, and of serpents, and of things in the sea, is tamed, and hath been tamed by mankind; but the tongue can no man tame; it is an unruly evil, full of deadly poison.

We need to be careful how we speak to others and how we speak to ourselves.  We need to learn how to lift each other up and not put down.