Just Wondering

Do you ever just wonder where God is?  And what the heck He is doing.  I have!
Just curious what is your opinion on God and what the heck is he doing?

I have wondered many times where God is and what the heck he's doing.  He doesn't seem to be helping or assisting me in any way.   Is what I have been doing and getting a product of my own doing, or is God somehow involved?  And if God is actually involved in it why don't I know that????

It really puzzles me on this whole thing about God and what He's so called doing???!!!

I don't know what God is doing!!!  And I don't know if He actually cares what is going on in my life!!!  If He did well then maybe I wouldn't be in this situation.

This is something I struggle with on a daily basis.  Does God care and if he does why doesn't he help, why doesn't he talk to me and where in the world is he.

He's suppose to be a comforter, a guiding force, a help in times of trouble, a miracle worker, etc.  I don't see that.

WHERE IS GOD????  And why is He not answering my prayers.   Why is it constantly a daily struggle to believe in Him and trust Him?   I wish I knew!

Anyone out there have any suggestion other than just trust and obey or don't give up, just rely on God he will answer.

I don't want generic answers as listed above or other generic answers concerning that.  I want genuine answers.

I'm so tired and fed up with oh just trust God, he'll make it happen, just wait and see that the Lord is good, and all things work out for the glory of God.  Yeah, well that may be true, why don't I see it in my life.

What is the Glory of God, why doesn't he make it happen, why are things not working out in my life: and how can I give glory to God when my life is in such a shambles???

I don't think I will give up on God,  I'm just wondering on what God will help me with if anything.  Maybe, just maybe God will someday finally talk to me and answer me.

I do believe there is a God and that he is almighty, however I don't think (at least for now) He really gives a crab about what's going on in our lives.

Where

I'm not sure where this post belongs, here or in heaven's grocery store.
However here goes.

Why do I question everything?  including God.  I wonder where He is and why he doesn't help me or give me guidance.  why does my life seem to be a nightmare, why does it seem to be a dream.   Why is it a hallucination, why can't I seem to get a grip on it any more.   I really, really don't know what happened to me.

I'm lost and confused and I don't know where to go or what to do.  I have lost  my ambition, my drive, my sense of adventure.   I want it back and I don't know how to find it.

I want God back in my life and although I believe I found him over 35 yrs. ago,  I wonder.  I wonder, I wonder and I still wonder, where is He, who is He and why can't I get back in touch with Him.

I'm searching, searching, looking, questioning, praying and still I can't seem to find God nor get his help!!!!!!   Where are you God, why do I feel like you don't care.   Somewhere in my brain I know you do!   Somewhere in my brain I know you love me.

It's my heart that I'm concerned about!!!!   I don't feel you in my heart and I want to! I don't know why I don't feel you in my heart.  Why aren't you  there???

Maybe I'm just confused.  I just wish I knew what to do.  God I feel lost and confused and I know you are not the god of confusion.  I know you give a lot of verses about that but they do not seem to be helping right now.

I'm just wondering right now where are you now!!!!!!!!!!  Why can't I hear you????
I want to hear you, I want to know what to do, I want to know how to start or do or whatever?.  I need to know,  I do not like this feeling of being lost and confused and being alone. (I know God I am not alone but that's how I feel)

I'm not good at speaking things out loud and I know I should according to your word.  I guess that is something I need to work on because I know there is power in the tongue or word spoken.

I just need your help God a small merical or something, guidance, direction.  Something.  I'm not asking for a lot God, I'm just asking for direction, that's all, please give me some direction.